1/16/2008

Second week of school post-Christmas, and things seem to be settling down, work-wise. Then again, I may be speaking too early considering it's 6.16pm and I haven't done any work yet, having only just got home half an hour ago. Still though, good signs. I mean, I did this time table last night, to make sure I catch up with everything, and I just got a reply from the Chemistry tutors which means we may be able to start some point really soon. Also, swimming today was good, and totally wouldn't mind making it a weekly thing, along with the gym because it will be fun. ^^

Which reminds me, if I audition for Chamber Choir and get in, and once work at Crofters start, I will have no free afternoons. Omg. hahhaa, coupled with the horrible lack of free lunches, it will be so crazily crazy. Not joking. Ahhhh! Talk about getting a job.

Still though, not complaining, because Mandarin Club got 5 new people today, which means, IT'S GROWING. Haha well, duh. It's really amazing though, I never thought it'd be possible. I mean, everyone's learning something, and by the end of this term, they're going to know how to read/write proper paragraphs, it'll be the most amazing thing ever.

Also, secret project might just go through, I mean, Mrs Cox (head teacher) has approved of it. Which means all that's left are the governers and things. Omg, it'll be so, so amazing to do something like that, and yes, I'm writing rubbish. Fill you in when it's confirmed. Haha omg.

And I really want an internship. Stupid EMA. It's not fair, and the most annoying thing ever.

I am freaking out about Monday. Interviews've never been my thing. Tryyyyy.

Yeah so, things seem to be going well atm, I just need to actually get some work done. Totally missing people, though. And yeah, well, some point soon, I'd really like to go home. I love this life I'm leading, you know, the busyness and all the opportunities I've been given (that I really don't deserve.) But yeah, it just isn't home, and sometimes I feel that if I stayed just a minute more, I'll burst, and then I have to run away because everyone seems to have these unrealistic/un-called for expectations of me and I'm wondering whether what they perceive is really who I am, or do they just have these inflated ideas of me, traits they think are there, but really, very simply isn't, and I'm not being modest when I deny what they say - I really genuinely have no idea. Because so much of what they see, is a front. & I genuinely miss the feeling of just knowing that you'll never be alone, or judged, and quite literally, you have people around you just being there you can actually meet face-to-face 24/7. And you never have to worry about the way they think. Sometimes, MSN/the computer just seems more of a barrier than a source of communication because really, nothing beats being home and these things just make it seem further away than ever before.

Either way, it's been fun, and I'm going to get published soon, and that just makes my day, no matter how old the news is. (: Haha, there's always something new to be smile about anyway. Also, Derren Brown's Tricks of the Mind is a very very good book and life would be very interesting were you his friend. Hahaha. Ohyeah, my Y7s are the sweetest things ever, hahaha will be working on their assembly (on Sadness - how sad is that la. Pun intended.) with them tomorrow lunch, going around filming teachers, HAHA it'll be hilarious! Too much fun.

And, I have High School Musical in my head. WHY. ACTUALLY WHY. (!!!!!)

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